Good morning everyone,
Someone said they can't imagine what I am feeling. My response was, I am feeling all the feelings. I said before this is a little like a roller coaster.
Yesterday the service was great, we had a wonderful crowd, the place looked great and was comfortable. We met at the Snelling Chiropractic clinic.
On Friday afternoon, it all got to be too much and I ran away from home. Yes I do feel about 7 when I say that, but it was important to do at the time. I was only gone for about 4 hours, but I needed the time to sit by the river and cry, and wander through Rite Aid and buy a Janet Evanovich book, and eat dinner alone. It had all become too much. Too much dirt, too much clutter, too many decisions, too much loss, just too much.
There are times when I hate I know what I know. All the time I am trying to have a really good pity party, in the back of my mind I am hearing things like, you know it will be OK, this really isn't beneficial, you know you are loved and all will be alright. All that's true and sometimes we need to cry.
I love being a minister. Knowing that I had a talk to give, moved me through the, what do I call it, time of downness, time of feeling swamped, time of getting caught up in the feeling of the moment. Maybe time of focusing on my human condition vs. the truth that I am Spirit expressing. Maybe I just call it being human. Whatever we call it, it is part of who I am, who we are. Sometimes it is all too much. For me, then it is time to work on a talk and be reminded of what I believe and teach. Which is in part - I am guarded, guided, protected and sourced. All is Good. What comfort this teaching gives me.
We expect to have the final estimate on the repairs of the house today or tomorrow. As soon as we agree, they will begin work. The house is clear of debris. We spent two and a half hours with the adjuster and contractor on Friday morning walking through and agreeing on what was there and what needs to be done. They estimate it will take 6 months to complete. So, sometime in the summer we will get to move back to our new-beautiful-better-than-before-home.
And now I will work on content inventory.
Have a blessed and beautiful day,
Rev. Carolyn
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For my part, I am really glad to hear that Carolyn ran away today. Knowing what I know from my spiritual perspectives means nothing if I can't be real with the pitches and rolls of the journey. Life is a TRIP, Universal Truth, and ALL. This particular Sunday, yesterday, I was at Creative Life Center, for my monthly visit, and wouldn't you know, they had the County Constable out, and all kinds of buzzing around their freshly MISSING Sound System to the center. There was a break-in, and it had been taken during the night. An odd-feeling wave of de ja vu sort of "Has the World Turned Upside Down?" moved through my mind and heart. And, Rev. Jesse's talk went on without a hitch. He reminded us that we are all people--in the totality of what it means to be fully Human--and it is not about what happens to us; it is about what we do through the learning in what happens to us. For myself, I believe we are all making the most of it. And, I love all of US!
Vicky
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